Dancing with ALS and Life

dancingwithalsandlife.blogspot.com I try really hard to remain positive and to focus on all the good things that are in my life. And I try to live day by day and not think too far ahead in this shitty situation called dancing with ALS and life because I have been on this journey with symptoms starting six years ago. I learned early on constantly thinking about what I am losing or what will not be, takes me down a mesmerizing spiraling Alice in Wonderland rabbit hole, and I land in a very strange world that I don't recognize nor know where I fit in. When I do land in the strange world, I am determined to claw my way back up and out of the spiraling bunny hole.  I really hate when I feel like I'm wasting even one of my remaining days of life that God is giving me, because I'm just focusing on the negative shit! I find it is imperative to keep my mind busy to avoid further rabbit holes or strange lands.   However, I'm not always successful, and every once in a while, when ...

  “A Journey of 1000 miles begins with a single step” ~ Lao Tuzla  and “It’s your road and yours alone, others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you” ~ Rumi 1/26

dancingwithalsandlife.blogspot.com Experiencing slow but continual motor function loss of my arms, hands and now in my legs, sucks!. Prior to living with ALS, I was very active with a busy life consisting of my career and family. For self care, I enjoyed hobbies to help me decompress from the world.  In 2021, my busyness came to a screeching halt going from 100 miles an hour to nothing and gave me unbearable whiplash. I just felt so lost when everything was being stripped away from me, especially all my hobbies that required using my hands such as gardening, baking, crafts, crocheting, and reading. Focusing on the losses just threw me into a tailspin of deep depression and self isolation. I would spend countless hours scrolling through webpages on 101 hobbies to try, hoping and praying for hook, line and sinker that would fit my new normal. I even googled activities/hobbies for disabled individuals. Funny thing is, the website said disabled individuals should try gardening, puzzles...

  “The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, but felt by the heart” ~ Helen Keller